Look who has finally decided to write something!  It’s been a while since I’ve written a real post.  Thank goodness I’m not one of those big blogs that people read daily or I’d have lost all of my readers by now.  I wish I had something witty to write about but I just don’t right now.  Not that I’m upset or depressed.  I’m not.  I’m actually really really good.  I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about life in general and what I want and what I don’t want.  So let’s start with the simple things.

 

I WANT TO MOVE!  I am so sick and tired of Birmingham.  Growing up I moved a lot.  I hated it at the time but now I miss it.  I had gotten used to moving.  When I first got to Birmingham I switched apartments yearly to cope with not switching towns.  Now that I have a house I can’t do that.  This house….she’s mine.  I can’t just up and buy a new one every year or two.  I’m lucky that my job has offices all over the country, but there is one in particular that is screaming my name.  I desperately want to move to Dallas.  I wouldn’t have the same job, and I LOVE my current job, but I’d be in a place that has no memories.  Good or bad.  Birmingham has been good to me but the memories of my past life are choking me.  Don’t get me wrong. I’m completely over my past mistakes.  And by mistakes I mean wasting 4 years of my life on a liar and a cheater. 

Let’s talk about that for a minute shall we?  Oh the ex-fiancé.  So happy he’s an ex.  Right now, January 23, 2013 I can honestly say I am completely over him.  GOD that feels good to say, believe and know.  I’ve realized a lot about last year and why I made choices I made.  The major realization I made is this.  I took him back last February because I wanted to “win”.  I wanted to be the one he chose, not her.  Sick huh?  I’m so competitive that I was trying to win the love of a liar and a cheater.  How sad was Maggie 2012?  OK so the big realization…..I DID WIN!  I’m the one who actually wins in that situation because he is completely out of my life. I don’t have to spend the rest of my life wondering if the cheater is cheating!  My daddy said a long time ago, “A liar is a liar, is a liar. Once a man has lied to you he will never tell you the truth.”  How smart is my dad?  Seriously, why did it take me so long to believe it? 

So since I won, what is my prize?  It’s this.  I know exactly what kind of man I will be willing to change my name for.  (BTW, I was NEVER going to change my last name to the ex’s last name.  Should have been a sign huh?)  I’ll change my last name for the following: Honesty, good character, religious, caring, and a great sense of humor.  I don’t need a man who will send me flowers (but he should).  I don’t need someone to entertain me and expect me to entertain him.  Although spend a few hours with me and you’ll see I’m pretty damn entertaining.  What I need is someone who will love me enough, and show that love as only men do.  Ya know, provide, protect and let others know that you are his.  Three simple things that are so easy to do when you are a man of good character.  That’s what I want.  It’s going to take a good, honest man to make me trade in a last name that I take so much pride in. 

So those are the big things I’ve learned.  Let’s move on to what’s happened soon.  Well, I went and applied for my passport today. EASTERN CARIBBEAN HERE I COME!!!  I’m headed back to Memphis in February to celebrate the 12th anniversary of my 21st birthday!  That’s 33 y’all.  I’m really looking forward to that trip.  My very good friend Molly is coming with me again and we are staying with the Biffer.  This year I’ve got some cousins coming out too.  It’s going to be great birthday.  This year is making up for the oh so crappy 30th birthday.  I’m in too good of a mood to go into that. 

So really all that has been happening in Maggieville.  Happiness abounds!  Now if I can just get to Dallas!

 

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